From the depths of depression and frustration springs this sparkling revelation…
The future is not the biggest thing that can happen.
The realization of my dreams – even unto the whole world being saved on multiple levels – is not the biggest thing that can happen. Those are both just small pieces that fall under the arc of a much greater power: The Will of God.
The Will of God is far more vast than the fulfillment of human desire (even righteous human desire) and far more intricate than the matrices of possibilities that we can individually discern to various lengths. The source of the frustrations and whatnot that we have against life is because we cannot crack the code. No amount of wisdom can crack the code.
A pebble in a stream cannot accurately discern where the stream started, where it ends, or even how the stream came to be. It can only get caught up in the flow- the summary of its free will lies in the containment of the stream.
Likewise, we cannot accurately discern the over arching will of God. Not where it comes from, where it’s going, nor how it even came to be. Not fully. Even in Romans 12 in the opening verses it states such… “that you may know what the Will of God is- that which is good and pleasing and perfect.”
Good, pleasing, and perfect… attributes. Clues how to find it, and be confident that you’re in it. We know how to plug into it, as well as discern what it’s NOT (for that too is part of the Will) but we know not what the Will itself literally is. We know the blueprint builds a building and what materials to gather, but we are not fully certain what the building itself will be, other than glorious.
There are simply things that we will not – cannot – understand.
Fulfillment and peace come not in just KNOWING a thing but knowing He’s got it. And that because He’s got it, we’ve got whatever piece of it that He gives to us. Even the apostle Paul stated such.
“Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. I can do all things through Him [Christ] who strengthens me.” ~Philippians 4:11-13 (NASB, brackets added)
God may show us things – God may not. God may give us a break- God may not. God may let us realize our dreams quickly – He may not. None of that is the point- but in our goal oriented society we have been conditioned to believe it is. “I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.” That’s true contentment. No matter WHAT we do we “win” essentially because we are working with all of our fervor at it, knowing the power of Christ fuels us.
If God shows extra situational benevolence then amen! More power to you. Be grateful and do not squander. But what if He does not? Even if you’re FAITHFUL?? Even if His wisdom has been pouring out of you on behalf of others, you’ve been sacrificing, taking risks for the Light that no one else will? And you STILL find yourself in dire straits? Elsewhere in the Bible it says that whatever your hands find to do, do it with all your might (Ecclesiastes 9:10).
Firstly, that means keep on keepin on! And secondly, add to it whatever is required to fill your lack. If you are walking in faith and your faith is not yielding provision for your needs, it is not UN-faith to take it in your own hands and create your own provision. It just means that you were your own resource, rather than an outside source.
Understanding over-arching authority brings definitive meaning to personal action.
Allll of this falls under the arc of the ultimate governing power: The Will of God. NOTHING is fulfillment unto itself. It is a construct into the architecture being fashioned by The Architect. No matter how bomb a bedroom you build – it still pales in relation to the whole house. A whole piece of a grander whole is not fulfillment.
Fulfillment is knowing that whatever whole piece of the grander whole that you are next tasked with, you have the ability to complete. “I have learned to be content… I have learned the secret… I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.”
Lower your gaze from whatever was filling your vision, blink, and then look up- and out. Find the over arching flow. The Will of God. Don’t obsess with cracking it- all things are not meant for the comprehension of the human mind- but simply …. go with it.
And don’t freak out if you cannot easily spot it- do what your hands have found to do. “Good, pleasing, and perfect.” Do good things. Things pleasing to God. Don’t fret over doing everything perfectly- but spend your energy doing perfect things (showing mercy, kindness, walking in benevolence, etc). These will place you in His Will. Remember- it is not about knowing, it’s about flowing.
A pebble in a stream.
“And let us not lose heart and grow weary and faint in acting nobly and doing right, for in due time and at the appointed season we shall reap, if we do not loosen and relax our courage and faint.” ~Galatians 6:9 (Amplified Version)